Year End Service

Its 4 days to the end of the year!
Year end service totally put a change to my mood today.
Feeling tired, wrecked and slightly depressed about what has happened in 2009 that i didn't feel like attending service today.
But Pst Tan's words kept ranging in my head, during SOS, "Keep turning up, keep serving, keep coming to service. You'll open yourself for God to move in your life."
True enough, God moved, and i feel so filled once again.
2010 is going to be the best yet!

"This afternoon i thought 2009 was my worst year yet, till i remembered that the best thing that happened was knowing you." - M

Europe post up soon!

Europe!

Leaving for Europe people! Don't miss me ;)

Singapore Always Feels Et-home

Well, looks like it was a premature ending to my family's Malacca trip(except for my brother, but i'll tell you why in a while.)

The story goes like this:

On the winding highways of Malaysia, the sun paraded itself in the sky with pride. It was absolutely perfect weather for suntanning, unless you're caught in the middle of a foreign road with your car's rear smashed in.
Three frail looking vehicles hobbled over to the side of the road, victims of an unfortunate event. Curiously enough, the two taxis in front of the vehicles, the prime cause of the accident, were miraculously unscathed. The two services had stopped in the middle of a busy expressway on a public holiday. Their rationale and reason, only known to their passengers and drivers.
Their short hiatus from a long journey left the remaining vehicles in a cruel twist of fate. While both the white Proton and the metallic silver Honda civic were able to stop just in time behind the taxis, the third seemed to prove otherwise. An untimely break by its driver caused the black Daihatsu to kick start a domino effect, which ended with the white Proton barely touching the rear bumper of the second taxi.



While both the Proton and Daihatsu seemed to be out of any condition to drive, amazingly enough, the civic was still in condition to drive all the way out of the country.



Now you know why i'm back in Singapore.
Thank God that no one was hurt, not even the other drivers and passengers ;)
My lucky brother was in another car with one of my dad's friends and now he gets to shop!
But i think its still a bummer for him since we're all not there.
Oh well, hope he comes back safely.

Supertastic Camp of the Year!

Loved, loved, loved the camp!
Superspecialaweometastic people!
Kudos to the winning teams!

And to AstroBoy:
Though we were last, but like i always have said during the camp, its the process not the product that's most important!
Hope you all had a great time!
Gina, Nicholas, Brandan, Roseann, Bryan, Li Ying!

Made many new friends and revisited some old friendships.
A really, new and fresh perspective, because everyone you used to know are now camping with you.
Ex-Resources and campers relationships were abolished in this camp, making everyone equal.
And that made all the difference, because everyone now had to start again from scratch.
New perspective. (Without having to change seats, haha!)

Campfire was the best part no doubt.
And the time after that was the wildest time ever!

Really loved the short time all 29 of us spent as a camp.
;D

OP

Tomorrow's OP： 台上十分钟，台下十年功。

Hey at least after tomorrow, Project Work will cease to exist.

Its always hard to maintain two blogs.
I just imagine how some people can do that?
Well guys you can always check me out at tumblr @ http://lookitsmelvin.tumblr.com/

I think i'm beginning to realise more what love is about.(:

A choice of happiness versus a choice of anguish.
Suffering that lasts only for a year, or a more carefree 3 years

Can't stand this feeling at all, so many uncertainties..

True Worshippers

True worshippers worship in down times, or up times.
True worshippers worship in their best, or in their worst.
True worshippers stay and wait to worship.
True worshippers have a heart that's loyal to God.
True worshippers worship in spirit and in truth.
I want to be a true worshipper.

Pomotion?

Just got my finalised promos results today, and again the class was in a glum and solemn mood.
The usuals went out of class again today, must have been a really bad hit for them.
Cheer up ok, PW-mates? :D

Well, i'm short of the promotion criteria now by one H2 subject.

Results out only tomorrow, but so far there's been a lot of speculation about retaining and re-papers.
To my friends that are still really confused, worried or anxious, hopefully this verse will cheer you up:

Mat 6:34
“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is
enough for today.

;D

Post Exam

Links will be back up soon!
In the meantime, i've decided to input RSS feeds on my blog so that i'll be updated on news daily.
RSS RSS RSS!
Powerful little tool.
PW was really a test of perseverance today.(Concerning technical errors only.)
Everyday, PW is a test of my patience. (People-wise, haha!)

Satisfaction

Just finished my article, hopefully there aren't too many errors with it.
Thank God for strength and guidance, i need my deserved sleep now.

Solitude

Tonight feels like the longest night ever.

Words

My Bond. My Bond. My Bond.

A New Perspective

Links will be back up once promos end.
Math :(

Just because its not practical, does it mean we shouldn't do it?
Just because it takes up your time to make money, does it mean you shouldn't do it?
Everytime i'm blog-hopping, i recall what Ernest said about how his wife always asked if msn was taking up too much of his time making money and he agreed to that idea.

Perhaps there's a hidden circumstance that i fail to see, or maybe its just that we have different priorities and in the place of a married man, he says that he'll rather spend the time somewhere else instead.

Are relationships forgone in the process?
A necessary sacrifice?

Maybe in today's world its no longer possible to have the existence of such a duality, but with God all things are possible.

If there's one thing about faith that i admire about the apostles is that they didn't carry money wherever they went.
They wholly depended on God's provision for food, shelter and even clothing.
What's more, in their lack, Jesus commanded them to give their coats and sandals freely to whomever needed it.
Can such a similar scenario exist in today's world?

When work is no longer defined by the amount you receive but it becomes the amount that you give.

Perhaps God wants us in this age to earn the big bucks so that at the end of the day, more can be given to those who need it.

But God, in that exchange, what do we have to sacrifice?
I really don't know.
But if You want me to be a great giver, then perhaps the sacrifice is worth it all.

So unbelievably happy!
Basketball comm got the SLA award!
Haha!
Super unexpected, definitely its something from God! :D

Add that to the 'surprise' i'm getting tomorrow, i don't see any reason not to be joyful.

And besides, after reading Pst Stephen's note on facebook, i'm deeply encouraged.
Having the force of joy breaking through every circumstance is how we choose to be joyful.
That's way the joy of the Lord is our strength aman!

And its just the first day! ;D

Gonna live with more enthusiasm from now on, yesterday was really WOW.
Two power packed sermons on 1 day haha!
And yesterday the camera kept taking footages with me inside!

Promos Promos Promos here i come!

Hopelessly in love(:

A Circle, A Cycle and Another Twist and Turn

I was suppose to do my math tuition homework but i could resist blogging about the thoughts right now in my head.
Right after viewing some photos on facebook(I'm not going to say who), i've realised a few things.

Culturally, i felt so impacted, just looking at all the different places my friend has gone has made me oh so envious.
There is just a touch of the native culture that i could feel with the photos that were taken.
Amazing.
And when were they taken?

Like right now in this age when we're stuck in cram school?

Yes its my moaning and groaning about pre-university education again, my 'period' if you like, just that it comes more often than once every one or two months.
But anyway the point is, just by looking at the pictures, i'm wondering, do Singaporeans give up more of life than they originally thought?
Finance, stability, family, sure they are important values and virtues that anyone would want to possess, but i'm just thinking, have we ourselves made this the American dollar of our lives?

My friend was definitely in university during the time of her travels.
And just looking at that comparison alone, do Singaporean universities offer that same expanse of experiences?
Or are disciplines pieced and framed, with no room for the necessary flexibility of individual interest?
And at the end of the day, do schools advocate nothing but a paper chase society?
Sure, there could be a rising defense which says, "No! We aim to develop character as well!", but honestly, are these values overly tied in with what's need in getting a certificate?
Then there's the other argument that 'Meritocracy' is the way to go, 'People are our only resource."
There's no denying that, given our disadvantageous geographical situation. But,
Fortunately, there's never only one path to walk in life.

I'm not saying the country isn't a great place to live in, in fact its awesome to the littlest dot!(No pun intended)
Especially food, never hungry, no matter what time of the day, as long as you have moolah.
Singapore is a food haven and we should be proud of it,
But i'm getting very very very fed-up with the education i'm having.
Or is it just me?
They always say the grass is greener on the other side, and many times we've wound up wishing we could have gone back to where we have come from.
I don't want to end up in a situation like that.
But i still look forward to an overseas education.

Still, i'd think when we all do exchange places, its about who we are and not where we are.
From young i've been taught Asian values and been drilled into Asian perspectives.
Little did i realise that i've grown up with a thinking that is relatively different from that of my peers.
Liberal, freedom of expression, aesthetics.
Character, have i forgone in my pursuit of the above?
Maybe some, maybe some.

I cannot stand chains.
Tying downs.
Not being allowed to do this, not being allowed to do that.
But perhaps its a lesson to learning to obey authority.
And putting away that prideful, insolent flesh of yours so that you can learn a little humility.
But its getting tiresome and extremely bothersome at where i am.
I know i'm not one to judge but i just want to express my personal opinion.

"That hairstyle is so rebellious!"
"No its not!"
"At least i think so."
"Well that's what you think, i don't feel it is haha!"
"Then you might as well wear T-shirt and jeans to school everyday?"

No mutual respect for personal opinions?
I think that's how wars started.
Not that one will be escalated out of this mundane conversation, but giving a damn about what people think actually makes you a better person and less of a narcissist.
No pinpoints, its just general advice.
Still, if its your remedy, then you can reward me with by acting on it and change.

I'd still think everybodys unique and different still though!
Not that everyone being bottled up in getting education is a bad thing.
After all, the potential of it is unseen until later in life.
But have they missed out a lot more?
Is that all that is to life?
Its insane when you actually calculate how much time you spend studying in proportion to what else there is to life.
Don't preach to me the formula of "how long you spend studying now and how long you spend enjoying life later" and how its all worth it and everything.
Remember kids, you're only young once.
I remember a friend saying that i'm so happening now, 'clubbing' and everything, so different from how i used to be, i was actually glad.
If you say that my life is more happening than yours right now, you haven't really lived life.
Experiences make a person.

Perhaps that's why the year end Europe trip looks so promising.
A different perspective that i'm hungry for.
I'm also hungry for experiences.
Its not going to be just about shopping, food and the holiday.
Gotta get a good camera, lots of spare storage space and battery.
Pictures paint a thousand words, a cliche that hits your thoughts almost immediately.
But have you forgotten what's most important about pictures?
Memories, and that was what i discovered today.
Another memory that i won't want to forget.

Another Memory I Don't Want to Forget
Another memory i don't want to forget,
Be it climbing up the treehouse or shooting hoops into the net.
Adolescence and childhood, reminiscence, emotions and moods
Tie up the ends, of my life's great, big, story book.
You flip the pages, finding it has only begun,
Yet, retracing the last few pages, filled with pictures of the golden sun
Rainy weather, a dying rose in the winter
The salt of the beach in the joy of summer.
Then you come across one photo, so special you could see
The polaroid's color fading as time develops another
Everlasting, memory.

Thank you my friends for bearing with this awfully long post. I haven't written this much in a long, long time. Did i mention punctuations are't my very best friends?

When School gets the better of You

Germz: Leopard preentzzzz!
Keat: Khaki short, boomz!
Me: Ris Low is super entertaining.

*Looks at Levinia*
Me: Levinia, you should join Ms Singapore World too!
G,K & Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Me: And you know like, if they ask you, what prints do you like, you know what you can answer?
Lev: What?
Me: NEO-PRINTS!

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Ms Ng: And so, i've noticed that after the boys go for their 2 years NS, something magical happens and they come out more mature.
Pei Wen(immediately): Aye Melvin you should go now!
36/09(minus Ariel who was absent): YA!

Instead of living from sermon to sermon, its time to live out sermon to sermon.

PECK HUI says:
*your life so happeniing now ah!
*i prefer to know the old melviin haha
Backspinning windmilling flaring air-flare backflip. Mat 6:33 says:
*haha its always been
*the old melvin?
PECK HUI says:
*yeap!
Backspinning windmilling flaring air-flare backflip. Mat 6:33 says:
*haha why
PECK HUI says:
*back then in ats
*:D
*cus u seemed more harmless back then!
*HAHAHA!
Backspinning windmilling flaring air-flare backflip. Mat 6:33 says:
*lol tell me how was i like
*HARMLESS?!
*am i very harmful now?!
*lol funny sia
PECK HUI says:
*haha true what!
*the harmless cow was much better
Backspinning windmilling flaring air-flare backflip. Mat 6:33 says:
*hhaha!
PECK HUI says:
*anw gdluck and add oil for promos la
*dun club too much!
*haha
Backspinning windmilling flaring air-flare backflip. Mat 6:33 says:
*HAHA i don't club la
*that was a pub
PECK HUI says:
*you look like a clubber now mel!
*or dun drink too much!haha later shorter lifespan u know!

Looks like its not just chc people that have viewed the album.
Peck Hui cracks me up haha!

My haviannas went missing overnight.
And i had a cramp during my gold exam.
What more can i say how today has been?

Well, i can only give praise, for all that has happened.

I just had a realization over the weekend. Can you imagine the hall is going to be run by a team of people that are all under 25?
Pro 20:29
"The glory of young men is in their strength"

Mad weekend with short planning time for Darryn's birthday as well as zone duty during friday haha.
Oh well, it turned out fine in the end, photos up on facebook soon i guess.

Have i already mentioned how awesome West Grand Boulevard was?


So awesome they were willing to take a pic with us! ;D

Another Night

I can't speak for you, i can only imagine.
If only i can take your place, sigh.
One only gets stronger when one is put to the test, perhaps this is just it, for you to be stronger.
People can make wrong judgement sometimes, we're not God. (Thankfully)
But sometimes, is it too many?
Too assuming?
I don't know God, all i'd can do is probably to pray and trust in You.

1 Sam 16:7
"for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."

And besides, i'm still trying to find out what i want.
Hopefully a year is enough.

Not making any sense of what i'm ranting?
Its ok, just ask me in person, the internet has no concrete barriers.

One year is already over, is the next one worth going through?

Holidays! Lovely sleeping time.

The funny thing is when EoM's due tomorrow, I'm still concerned about watching idol today.
Haha!

Anyway, VOTE FOR CHARLES WONG!

Its overwhelming when everything culminates into something you can't handle.
Even after finishing what is necessary, there are still so many other things just pending for my attention.

But i'm not going to let the cares of this world choke me.
Thank God for the word.

In any case, this has been rather overdue but i'd just wanna thank that somebody for my new bible.

Going to lead an AMPlified life ;D

Short Muses

Forsake Yesterday, Seize Today, Rewrite Tomorrow.

Praise like a rock concert, Worship like the greatest surrender, Pray like there's no tomorrow.

Baybeats 2009!

Awesooome Awesooome day today!

Morning was spiritual freedom with Pst Phil!
Even though my shoe went swimming in the morning, it was worth it in the end!
And can i rant that expo air-con was super cold?

Moving on to the other highlight of the day, Baybeats 2009!
But before that was mugging session in the Esplanade library.
And guess what?
I got dragged by Ariel on the library's wooden floor just because i refused go see some interview session at the observatory deck with him.
Turned out to be Inch Chua.
"Inch Chua? Familiar where did i hear that name before?"

To those familiar with the local music scene, she's the singer of the band Allura.

And the best thing was, Ariel didn't even know her.

After that, managed to catch Audiocean before they played Hollywood, woo!
At first i told Ariel, "I bet like half the people here are camping for Anberlin."
Turns out 90% of the crowd was camping for Anberlin.
Managed to get seats close to the stage though.
Acoustic session was pretty Awesome.
Though i only knew like 2 songs out of all.

Headed on inside to the concourse to catch Inch Chua live.
I must say she's very creative.
Incorporating electronic trance tunes to acoustic guitars isn't easy.
I advise you listen to her, not to me, to judge.
Download her free EP: The Bedroom here.
Chilly session.

Cartel dinner after that.
Strangely today, i didn't have a hunger for food.
Rather for music.
But some funny stuff did happen at Cartel haha!

A rush after that to Powerhouse stage for the main main main highlight of the night:
ANBERLIN!
Massive massive crowd.
Ariel, Khee Ern, Jess and me actually got rather inside the crowd, then i offered to bring their bags out so that we could be sort of freed up to dance.
Only managed to find Jacq and Leo close to the start of the band's performance.
Stayed with them later for like a few songs.
Ariel came out later, complaining how hot it was.
And later i went in with him, and he bounced too fast for me to follow him all the way to the front.
So i got sort of bounced by 2 guys 7-8 people before the front of the stage.
Managed to get till like before 4 people the stage front, but had to get out cos the others were leaving already.

Last bus home with a satisfied Ariel with his scars from Baybeats 2009.

Comparatively to SG idol, i feel Baybeats is really the music event of the year, even though there's like no prize money involved.
But hey, at least its FREE!
Bands, acoustic sessions, solo performances, club beats.
It just has that full coverage for every age, although it is rather obvious what the target age group is.
Some shots will be up soon, probably by tomorrow.
What an event, looking forward to next year ;D

Sometimes death is just like a wake-up call.
Only sometimes, is that call too late?

Change change change!
Change me, i don't wanna be the same, i don't want to feel the weight of this world.

Playing 5 stones is the way to go.
Make them smooth and giant go poof!

Induced Insomnia

Now i know the reason why i always tend to fall asleep during BS class on wednesdays.
Just look at the time.
Tsk tsk tsk.

Why Lit Rocks

I swear, my lit teacher is the coolest ever.
In a reply to the petition i sent to her to sign, she said:

Melvin,
I love cats and dogs. Especially dogs. But I'd much, much rather receive your missing assignments (your poem & analysis, and the questions that were due yesterday) than this PSA. I'm not signing this petition until I get the assignments. Dogs and cats are dying by the millions, apparently, on your watch. Change the world; turn your assignments in.

Ms. Zobel

Perhaps its time to worry less about everything.

Stand Up for Singapore!

I noticed a stagnancy in my blog for the past week, sorry to my avid followers, i've been rather busy this week, with all the NDP stuff.
Song is on facebook, i wonder how many you have heard it already haha!

Kbox was enjoyable!
Haha!

And i don't think it really has been a holiday for me, i've been like waking up before 9am everyday starting from saturday this weekend?
Haha, but thoroughly enjoyed it, especially with my winning streak in mahjong today.

And i missed the pledge moment!
I was in Hereen with Jacq and we only realised it 20 minutes later lol.

Many thoughts running through my head again.
But i'm not going to let them build nests in my head.
Submitting every thought to Christ!

Its time to get into full gear for promos, its less than 2 months away.

First night of FOP was a blast.
Can't wait for tomorrow. ;D

Super impacted by zone prayer meeting today.
Love of God.
I think i now know how my capacity can further expanded.
Just like what Ian said, when we're up to our limit in loving somebody, it is only the love of God that can help us to continue to love this person or to love him or her unconditionally.

I just feel so thankful that the love of God is in my life.
;)

A really huge post coming your way.
3 parts and i'm still at part 1 haha.
Althought part is already up on my FB.
Do check it out and comment ok?

FYI: This post is officially the 666th post.

0.0

Pratabomb

WOO Zam Zam has pratas the size of my test pads!
Shioking dinner last night with 3 or the usuals, and with 3 new faces.
Haha, 3 new friends in a day!
Walked past much of arab street yesterday and finally got a glimpse(and smell) of the much talked about shisha.
Just to quote Mell again, "You don't look like a JC student lah!"

And had to stay up late to complete my econs essay and keep a certain somebody awake to study.
5am - Sleeping time
Best thing was econs only needs to be handed in on Mon. $_$

Surprisingly, today there was a lot of deep thinking and defining of questions.
Especially during econs hahaha!
Chinese after that was even funnier.

Supposed to K after listening but Germs didn't feel like it so in the end we didn't at all.
Ah oh well.
Have to head back to school later for CWO at 6pm.
Horrid time when there's classes tonight.

In the meantime, its time for some L4D.

Well yesterday was a memorable service.
Like 4.5k people seeing you 'fall' under the power of God.
And possible a few more thousand watching over the internet.

And our beloved section leader going to learn how to somersault soon.
HAHA!
And the Manouveres are so, well, amazing for their age!
I loved the backflip from stage to the floor.
Like almost 2 metres in total counting the jump in the air.

Well interesting service basically.
And powerfully impacted.
Today is another memorial that i have to lay down and remember.
But just as WH preached on friday, we have to continue walking.

Well the coming week is going to be a week of prayer!
Haha.
Pastor Kong said something that definitely has impacted me:

He said that speaking in tongues is powerful, because the devil doesn't understand it.
Only God does.
That is why i came up with the equation:
Speaking in tongues more = Breakthrough comes faster.

This is why i'm going to pray more.
Because i really need certain breakthroughs to come.

"When everything else seems to be a mess, the only strength comes from God, and to where you focus it."

I guess its time to make a decision before everyone gets upset.

Somehow, i've been visiting survey monkey too much the last 2 days.
Max's birthday on sunday night was really a blast haha!
Especially with the straw blowing, ice cream smashing madness.
What other rants i've got?
Why is MapleViaOnline always so unstable?
Haha i guess i will just wait till it stabilizes and everything.
Oh and i want my own atm account soon.
Or netts will be fine, whichever will help me pay for that occasional midnight cab fare home.
And this week i'll be keeping this thought in mind: "Life is 10% what happens and 90% how we react."
That's because our CT's are slowly, but surely being returned to us, haha.

Well i gotta pray soon.
Saturday, another step of faith.

Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen

Well, back from a movie from the cell, and i've finally watched the much talked about:


I think many of my friends already know i'm not a movie buff and i only watch shows that i feel are worth watching on the big screen.
You can call me a critic, because i'm usually not very generous when it comes to rating movies.
Well, transformers happens to be another one of those movies.
Don't be offended at first sight, because i'm not saying that the show isn't good. Just listen to what i have to say.

Firstly, all that hype about Megan Fox being the hottest senorita around, well i think its really an overstatement.
I'm not gay, i do admit she has a thought-provoking body, but, i mean, all that fuss wasn't really necessary.

Next, i think what Michael Bay did was right, that he didn't really focus much on developing an extraordinary plot but focused on the action instead.
Action buffs like me are highly entertained.
Sure, in the end the plot seems like your average "We're so different but together we're the best team", "Divided we fall", and all that talk about destiny, i don't need anymore extra cheese the next time i'm at subway.
But, that's where the movie shines because, that minimal(or lack of) focus on the plot is really able to draw viewers to where the bang in the buck is for the movie. And this is where i reiterate again, it is the action that really what makes Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen an awesome flick.
I'm not going to be anal and do a close analysis on everything(even though i think it'll help pull up my lit grades) but short clever dialogue, plot twists, and the whoop-ass fights between the Autobots and Deceptacons really made my monday night after a long day at school.

Final Judgement?
4 stars out of 5 stars.

Just to address some thoughts, i needed this post.

Being 17 is definitely full of joy, but at the same time, confusion, bewilderment and insecurity.

Sometimes i look at the friendships my CHS friends share and i can't help but envy, thinking, have i given those friendships for church?
Then i must tell myself again, is it for church, or is it for God?
I am then reminded that we have to give up certain things to follow Christ, carrying my cross to follow You.
Though i look at see, Lord, i can't help but feel i could have been in that picture with them, but somehow i know, that what i see is only temporal and the only things that are of worth are the things that are eternal.

Sometimes i wonder, how can people not be concerned about where they are going after they die.


And another thing, the last month or so has me rather, well, in a state of ambivalence.
A double-minded shall be unstable in all his ways, and i've told myself i should be firm in the decision i make.
But i don't like to hurt people.
Given the only option i have, what else can i do?
Actions all have consequences.
But the consequences are determined by how we react to those actions.
You don't always have to 'pay' for your consequences.
You never know, you could always draw out the best in you in those times of trial.

Maybe i should not have led you on.
Because when i turn and look back
It seems like an unrecorded song.
An incomplete tune, cacophony with lyrics absurd
They make me feel like a complete bastard.
But i don't want to dwell in the place
So shallow so low
So dry so broken like a hidden plateau
I want to find comfort, from the heart within
The heart of worship, the heart free of sin.
No place is there Lord like the palm of your hand
Which soothes and cleanses my heart
My mind, soul and body
I know my problems are much,
They won't stop to tell
Of the times i've been broken
And the pieces fell
Deep in a well.
But the Lord is my strength,
my shield and my faith.
And in Him alone i will trust
because there my purpose remains.
My security and identity,
in a God that truly reigns.
So seek His kingdom first,
And all shall be added back to you.
And one day i know that that thing,
Indefinitely will be you. ;)

ANYONE HAS WIDE SARGASSO SEA???
URGENT

Break

Its so funny that one word connotes 3 things that i absolutely have to love:

Break

1) Rest, like when i'm having a kit kat.
2) Jargon or short for breakdancing/bboy.
3) Breaking down by God.

Especially by the last one, i'm reminded of Pst Tan's preaching during SOS.
Being broken so that the anointing can flow.
Joy said the same thing too on fri's pm cgm.

And decentralized service was sweet, even though i was serving.
Sometimes i think that even though serving places some restrictions on us, it is a good thing because we will find new ways to enjoy the service.

School in about 6 hours.

Super shagness yesterday after double decentralized services.
After that was dinner, a long talk and LAN haha.
But Melvin Chiang and me had to walk back to amk from Mell's house?
It was a walk that lasted from about 1.15 to 2.30?
Every step i take, i feel like giving up man seriously.
Oh well in the end, we still managed to get to our destination.
Machaim like trekking sia, i told him.

Past 2 days hanging out with cell has well, made me happy again.
I mean its a long time since i fellowshipped with the cell.
Once you're in a ministry you'll start to cherish every fellowship you have with your cell members haha.
Later on is Swensens with cell again cos of the voucher we won last year at NEOS camp hah.
Corinth 2!
Alright i'm still thinking if i should go bboy at raffles.
Hungry.

English 101

The importance of punctuation:

A panda walks into a café. He orders a sandwich, eats it, then draws a gun and proceeds to fire it at the other patrons.
'Why?' asks the confused, surviving waiter amidst the carnage, as the panda makes towards the exit. The panda produces a badly punctuated wildlife manual and tosses it over his shoulder.
'Well, I'm a panda', he says, at the door. 'Look it up.'
The waiter turns to the relevant entry in the manual and, sure enough, finds an explanation. 'Panda. Large black-and-white bear-like mammal, native to China. Eats, shoots and leaves.

Lit

This is why i love my lit teacher:

Don't worry about Common Test. It's only an academic assessment, not a judge of worth, character or aptitude.

Cheers,

Ms. Zobel

TESTING 1,2,3

CT week update:

Day 1 - Late for school like for 5 min.
Well a certain teacher being unreasonable again. I don't really like people who put words in your mouth.
A fuss over a small matter, just because my thermometer was in Farenheit haha!
Oh well.
GP was uh, blurry?
Can i say that the comprehension passage seems a little propaganda?
Actually i think its more of an opposing view.
Not much strong, emotional words anyway.
Not like the film i just watched, haha.

Day 2 - SICK.
Been at home since i came back from the doctor at 9.30?
Polyclinics are quite a waste of time, wait till you die literally HAHA.
Played pokemon till i was too drowzee and fell asleep.
Woke up and you know what time it was?
6pm!
My day feels so short ._.
Orchard tomorrow cos i've scheduled my dental appointment at 11.
Night there's chair arrangement again woo!
Alright time to study my history before i become it.
Ok wait i am already, a History Maker!

Everyday its a struggle to put God's love first.
But then again, its only through trials that we are strengthened. (:
But i really pray o God, that You make me jealous of our love every time something else tries to take our time away.
Even if it is just a time of worship, let it sanctified to You, no distractions, just attraction.
Break my heart for what breaks Yours.

Whatever has been happening the last few weeks made me realise what a forgiving and kind God You are.
One that is also always there for me, One that frees me from my worries, One that lifts me up when i'm down.

I don't think i've ever regretted this walk.
I just want to continue walking this narrow way.
And i don't want it done with my own strength, but with Yours.

Heb 12:2 "Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

Mellisa: "You are like living a poly life in JC la!"

I'd think so too.
Well the past few weeks, i've been going out and going out and going out and going out.
Some firsts.
First bar i've been to.
Mm that was quite a fun night haha.

And its been a messy holiday.
Too many things happening at once.
Just when one problem is solved another one comes.
The heart of the matter is the matter of the heart will be quite appropriate here.

But praise God, at least i have one hell of an interesting life. ;D

Everything just got a whole lot messier.

"Square lor."

"I think now pentagon already."

"Very soon polygon."

Backspin. Mat 6:33 says:
*er
*its her friend
*so
*then
*i got to know her
*then its like
*now our circle of friends lah
*sounds like some song right
des | xxxx says:
*OMG.
Backspin. Mat 6:33 says:
*haiyo
des | xxxx says:
*DO YOU THINK THIS IS A KOREAN DRAMA.
*HAHA. YOUR LIFE'S SO COMPLICATING WITH RELATIONSHIPS HUH.

Seriously, why korean?

Where to lepak sia?

Well another day spent, urm, not on homework.
Seriously i need to start somewhere for my work.

Anyway, dinner and chill with the 4A gang.
And guess what?
Only the same people turned up.
Haha. Seriously when can we have a breakthrough in attendance?(sounds vaguely familiar)
Ashtons, thank God i asked them to queue at like 6 cos it was really long by the time i got there.
OK yes i was late again.
After that was pool and arcade.
There was this arcade game that was super funny hahaha.
Dam funny to see people's reaction.

Supposed to go home together so we can all talk together on the long bus ride home.
Guess what?

"Ok i'm taking 166 i gotta go now bye!" *Boards bus*
"Uh ya i'm taking also." *Chases after bus*

"Take 857! Nearer." *Leaves for bus which is just right behind.*
*Follows*
"Ok wait, so what do i take?"
"Just come lah!"
*Follows on board*
"Bye!"

After a flurry of indiscriminate events, Michelle and I were left stunned asking each other what just happened.

And i found out on the bus the Mic had L4D.
SEND ME NOW!

Someone should liberate all rooms with mirrors for dancers to use.
URGE TO DANCE NOW CAN'T STOP.
OH MAN CAN SOMEONE REALLY GIVE ME AJ DANCE ROOM KEY NOW AND I'LL BE ECSTATIC.

Another eventful day.
I think my life is too eventful haha!
But still thank God.
Meetup with (supposedly) the Superteen people in the afternoon.
Turned out to be only Orson, Gary and me.
Still we had a long deep chat.
Got to know about the problems that has been happening.

Night was dinner at ba kut teh(2nd night in a row) with Max, Gwen, Jacq, MJ, Yun Ru and Sherman.
BS after dinner.

YR: "None of your cell group members same bs as you?"
Mel: "No leh."
YR: "Sad sia."
Mel: "WHAT?!"

Talk with Sherman after bs.
Well, really prays that he'll be able to rise up to the occasion when needed.
And God i really need Your guidance to teach and disciple him.

Headed over to Timbre after that.
Looking back now, did i exclusively left out Sherman by not inviting him to join us?
Anyway, finally found out where the much mentioned Timbre was.
Cai Quan with 3 ice cubes as forfeit.
After that, my hand got a sore beating.
Gwen can you not hit so hard next time?

On the way home i ran into a bunch of philippinos and hong kee people.
What a weird,weird day.

Can someone please tell me to study like now.
now? now? now? now? now? now? now?

And i neeeeeeeeeeeeed to practice dance now.
Must get my basics right ok yz can you come out now we go break into AJ super underused dance room and train there now.

Mid-years in 2 weeks.
2.

AFL

Back from tonning with Esther and Jon Tan at (guess where?)
Bedok Reservoir road macs!
And everytime i tell Leonard/Esther/Jon (etc the gang) that i know that area too well already and that something is definitely wrong.
Random ramblings.

Serious talk at macs in the morning that really distracted me from zuo wen(haha!) but still nevertheless interesting.
And someone was being pokingly annoying.

And today, according to Jacq, we were so high(due to a lack of sleep) that we were talking about how we would be like if we were angels.
So now, i'm like a PA?
And also i said if there was to be a book of Jacqueline, it'll be like 3x longer than the longest book in the bible.
Why?
Because of its 3x the quota of normal angels!
Haha! Hilarious.

Well, went back to MG in the evening.
Like after so long.
Danny said, "Long time no see."
Haha! He actually noticed, today he was being super cold in class.
And Michelle's warm up is imba as usual.
I nearly pulled one of my muscles.
And Jae says my singing improved! ^^
I CAN SING OK.
Even though i was so weak and didn't really feel like going to MG after the sleep at Gloria Jeans, I felt so refreshed dancing and singing again.
Doing the things i actually enjoyed.
And its definitely has to be God that gave me the strength and rejuvenation i desperately needed.
Heck, i even feel asleep while reading the word before classes started cos i went super early.
Thanks to my Great, Big, Dad.

Like the voice that calms the ocean,
You are the peace that calms my seas.

JACQQ; says:
i think i shld get some "owl award" or smth
JACQQ; says:
lol
Mat 6:33 says:
HAHA
Mat 6:33 says:
can lah
Mat 6:33 says:
eyes almost there alr
JACQQ; says:
LOL
JACQQ; says:
then you shld get goldfish award can?!
JACQQ; says:
hahah
JACQQ; says:
eyes so big. lashes so long?!
JACQQ; says:
so unfair!
Mat 6:33 says:
er, goldfishes don't have long eyelashes?
JACQQ; says:
er
JACQQ; says:
you're the first one lo

Make a Psalmist O' Lord

Dear God,

I would just want to be a psalmist for you.
To write songs that relate people to who You are.
To be the bridge just like Jesus.
Just use me O' Lord.
Because You've seen every tear i've shed.
Your eyes discern the heart of men.
You've seen the troubles of my soul.
And You are always good, i believe it so.
Sometimes when i don't feel like walking anymore,
You pull me up and set me on my feet.
You catch me when i fall.
And then You ask me to keep walking.
But how long is the road O' Lord?
It never seems to end.
Along the way, my feet seem to be getting heavier with every step i take.
I feel like putting down the cross You've asked me to carry.
But just before it touches the floor,
and breaks into a million irreplaceable pieces,
You send people in my life.
Who tell me to never give up and to speak to me what You've been trying to for a long, long time.
O' who am i to deserve this?
Who am i that You are mindful of me?
I am at a lost for words but the words of thanksgiving can't seem to stop.
Praises be to Your name.
A song of rejoicing sings glory to your name.

I am broken O' Lord.
Broken enough for You to fix the pieces.
Broken enough to let the fragrance pour out of my soul.
A blessing to all nations,
is what You have called to my name.

And i will be Your instrument,
if You will be my musician.
Because like the trumpet that rings high the sound of victory,
I am exalted in your hands.
Like the harmonica which plays the blues of beggars,
I am the Your vessel of compassion.
Like the guitar that brings joyful melodies to people all around the world.
I am called to be blessed to be a blessing to everyone around me.
Like the violin that shrills the tone of sadness,
I am Your relation to the troubled.
Like the drums that echo beat after beat,
I make people dance at Your feet.
Like the instrument You've placed in my hands,
I will make music all for Your fans.

God opens your eyes in ways more than one.
Felt so so so stressed today.
Its not totally because of duty.
It was a combination of many other things.
Refreshments, new friends, after service duties.
Just wanted to drop everything down and just leave.

But thanks to Ivan for talking to me.
Its a period of stretching.
Pressure is coming in from all sides, and the only thing God wants you to do is to grow.
Enlarge your capacity.
I'll say, "God just do it, i just keep doing what You want me to."
Even if i feel like giving up, even if i feel like breaking down, all i need is Your strength.

2 Cor 4:8-10
We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed— always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body.

Class Chalet!

Back from class chalet!
Response was, honestly, very lukewarm.
Stayover count dropped from 13 to 9 overnight after the first day.
BBQ count was ok though.
At least 75%.
Lots of things happened on the first night of stayover.
Hahaha.

Had a talk with Deb this morning, and it really made me realize some very important things that i seem to have forgotten.
THANKS LOADS DEBBIE ;D

Feeling much much much better.
So much so i'm ready to be a history-maker.

Sometimes we even take the ability to walk for granted.

I cried my heart out during worship today.
Just felt that i had to release everything.
And i felt God just speaking to me today during worship.

Just step out, step out, step out.
Don't be afraid.
Just be affirmed.

So what's the choice i have to make now?


Side note: Zobel is totally going to -35 on our lit assignment 3.

Back from tonning with Ah Piao and Gwen haha!
Hope everything's going to be better at home for Jacq.
On the phone till 6.

And we chilled in macs from darkness to light lor.
Talked about a lot of things.
And got to know them both better haahaahaa.

Well, now i have 2 pressing issues to deal with.
Just that after the advice sessions, i'll be able to act in faith.
Right away.

Let the pictures do the talking

Results of today's photoshoot!
The rest will be on facebook soon i guess.
Do comment!

Today...

Today, I ...
- Got lost twice in a single day
- Got a new contract price.(starting at 10 bottles of milk tea)
- Put my life on the line for photography
- Did the shortest chair arrangement ever
- Finally got to see how i look like in suspenders
- Had my first taste of make-up
- Got to be someone's model for the day
- Knew 3 new friends
- Had a really awesome time!

Jacq: "The more i do the make-up for him ah, the angrier i get sia."

TOTALLY RANDOM BUT THATS JUST ME

HAHA i was just doing the survey form and i saw this section that said:

State 3 things you like about the way your tutor conducts the tutorial sessions:

Don't ask me why but i thought of Debbie immediately and what she'd probably put.
HAHA.


My heart's set in a motion thats unknown to emotion.

Because my heart beats in a direction different from yours.

I remember looking at Hector's profile photo and thought to myself, "Shit, i should get a shot of my freezes too and post it on fb!"

But i'm thinking, if someone asks for a photo of my freezes, i'll ask them to look for my video instead.

GDOP and Shifting

Well i think our friendship(s) has gone to a new level.
Last few days have been physically straining especially with triple days of serving haha.
At least was pretty glad that i did stage 2 well.
Still got stuff to work on, according to Jeff.
Although he did say Hubert and me did a good job^^

After that overnight stay at Jacq's house with chatting and cats and no cards and some squishy beanie thing.

And with 3 hours of sleep, GDOP and midnight shifting.

By around 11.30 i hardly had any strength left @_@

Left around 12, reached home at 1, slept at 2.
Well till 12 today.

What a way to start the holidays.

Putting behind the past and moving on with the present.
Well, that's what i'm going to do.
Especially with Pst Kong's timely bible study.

I think i've missed out on my first love.
And i truly apologize.
I just cried my heart out during worship.
And it felt so good to let go and let God.

Sidenote: Note and previous post on fb is not written in argument form FYI.
Metaphors are my thing, if you haven't noticed already.

In any circumstance,
I'll always be the shumalite and You will be my Solomon.

I still cannot believe what i can come up with in the middle of the night, just from a few conversations over messenger.
God is an awesome God, and the Holy Spirit just as hell creative.

God didn't give everyone everything they wanted so that people could learn to share.

In all Honesty

Preferential learning.
I'd just love to give my life to God first, and then devote the rest to music as a discipline.
But noooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
I can't.
Because studies are OH-SO important.

Ok Singapore, i can see your point why you want everyone to be smart because people are the only resource you have.
And its kind of sad.
Because some of your youths are screaming for change and you turn a deaf ear to them.
Because some of your youths don't want to cooped up in classrooms all day long and want to sing, dance, make music, paint, draw, take pictures, model, design clothes for the rest of their life.
And you know what, we don't even consider it a career.

Its a blessing to be doing what you're called to do.

But i don't blame you little miss of fourty,
because we are a small peesai country.
Always sitting in the sun,
making students and your collared workers run.
Without a choice where no one can complain,
because everyone's mindset has been programmed the same.

Society has degraded education in a necessity.

Have we given up much more for the paper chase than we have had initially thought.

Can we not have a preferential education where everyone learns at their own pace?
A coursework where time is not a factor and the thousand slips of documents are not the determinants of our paychecks?

If the world didn't revolve around money, will degrees be as valued?
An ideal that will never be fulfilled.

The inside lingo had me at 'hello', but we go where the money goes.

This is a cry that is going out to all of you.
If you are evoked, invoked or provoked,
don't be afraid to speak up.

An open channel for banter on the right.
All feedback is well received.

Because words are ammunition you cannot run out of.

'School's Out' NOW PLEASE

It takes a moment to fall in love,
But it takes you years to know what love is.

Its only a day more to the end of school but it feels like forever.

Well today, according to Yvonne(or Germaine i can't remember), i practically attended only 3 lessons for the whole day since i got chased out of hist and econs.

FTW Moment:
Germs: "So now what, we go back in and get killed is it?"
Me: "Yeah, just like halo."

Everyday seems to be a dream i cannot reach, a distance i cannot walk, a fatigue i can't endure, a mountain i cannot move.
A life i shouldn't be living.

Deliverance

Never felt so released in a long long time.
And this time, i want it to stay that way.
Because truly, there is nothing more i want than You.

Your heart has only one place, do you want it filled with the Spirit, or with demons?

revengancex@hotmail.com sent 21/5/2009 8:53 PM:
why you hypocrite and put on facade in aj
revengancex@hotmail.com sent 21/5/2009 8:53 PM:
can you tell me why
Vita la Vitualamen. Alleviation. Mat 6:33 says:
I'll be right back! Leave your msg behind.
- Illonus. | [ river of fire. ] says:
LOL
- Illonus. | [ river of fire. ] says:
YOU DAMN IRRITATING I SWEAR
Vita la Vitualamen. Alleviation. Mat 6:33 says:
I'll be right back! Leave your msg behind.
- Illonus. | [ river of fire. ] says:
AT LEAST YOUR MSN SPIRIT DAMN IRRITATING
Vita la Vitualamen. Alleviation. Mat 6:33 says:
I'll be right back! Leave your msg behind.
- Illonus. | [ river of fire. ] says:
OH FUCK
- Illonus. | [ river of fire. ] says:
I HATE AUTOMESSAGE
Vita la Vitualamen. Alleviation. Mat 6:33 says:
I'll be right back! Leave your msg behind.

Facade

Sometimes i feel i put on a different front in school.

And today's short unexpected debate has put Yvonne, Joy, Ariel and me in the same category.
The category that well, says: JC life pretty much sucks.

Sometimes i need a little bit more faith.
Wavering is not the way to go, its either to walk or to fall.
Astray.
Doubled mindedness is rewarded with instability.
But i get provoked time and again,
is this the path i've chosen myself,
or the one that i've been shown?

Please God, let it be the one that you have shown me, if not, 3 months of education have been very much in vain.

30 seconds (Well actually its 29) to make you want to learn bboy:

Check out the 22 second spin

Well unexpected surprise at home.

I've been wanting to play Halo Wars for ages.

"When you buy one?"

"That time march holidays go Sim Lim Square buy Ham's laptop thing then he saw the game then say what special pack limited edition then buy lor."

To think i had it in my home all along.

Awesome so far but pretty intense.
Even the normal difficulty campaign has me running everywhere to complete mission objectives.

Ok back to JC life.
Which is getting really bothersome.

A New Level

Thank God!

For 2 things:

1) New sennheiser headphones!
Finally collected this baby after purchasing at the IT fair 2 MONTHS AGO.
And it came with a free pair of headphones 0.0

2)2.4km run new timing!
Its like a major breakthrough from my previous timing, which was like 13--something.
13-something was a D or an E.
Today, i got a B!
11:05!
Came in 4th overall which was well, unexpected.

All the more to Praise God!

Awesome cover by Boyce Avenue, my new love.
Credits to Mell of course, who reads my blog from work haha!

Bleeding Love (Leona Lewis Cover) - Boyce Avenue

A mountain of homework.

And so much stuff to settle.

Ahhh lit lit lit lit lit lit.

School was abnormally but gladly short today, except for the lit lesson which sort of ruined the entire off-day feeling.

Got my threadless tees!
And Mic was super shocked to have gotten the tee haha!
Belated Birthday Gift!

AND I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT MAPLE SENT ME A WELCOME BACK PACKAGE TO GET ME PLAYING MAPLE AGAIN HAHAHAHA!
ISABELLA IF YOU'RE READING THIS: I HAVE GOT NEWS FOR YOU HAHAHA!
Pretty unbelievable, recession must have hit maple real hard too.

And my previous post is up on fb too, feel free to comment/like it, appreciate feedback, thanks!

Treasures

"First of all, Solomon’s temple speaks of purity. The whole building was characterized by its great length.....
Maybe as you read this devotion today, you are going through some challenging situations in your life. Be encouraged to know that the fiery trials are sent your way to purge and equip you so that you will be able to enter into your “new building” with God’s blessing.....
Finally, Solomon’s temple was made of pure gold. It cost billions of dollars to build because it was covered within and without with pure gold. God wants your inner life and outward ministry to be gloriously full of His presence and power." - KongHee.com, Daily Devotions

As i was reading this part of the devotion, i was just reminded of the desert song.
Indeed only the purest gold can withstand the fierest flames.
But you can't simply pick up a gold piece just on the street can you?
Which leads to me thinking, how are going to be that gold?

I would like to think it in the context of today's society.
Gold vs Dollars(Paper Money)
Which is a more stable indicator of financial abundance? (Let's not take diamond into context.)
The answer is obviously gold right, since it is used in determining currency strength and values.

And there is your answer.
If gold determines currency strength and value, Character determines our strength and values.
Our gold is our character.
When we have built up a large amount of gold in our banks, we are not afraid of going through even the deepest of recessions because we can be assured that our gold will be more than enough to last us throughout the recession.
When we have built up our character, we are not afraid of going through the most arduous of tasks because we know that we can withstand any challenges that may come our way.

And most importantly, an accumulation of wealth, or gold for the matter is not something that can be done overnight.
Similarly, a building up of character is not achieved overnight.


So my friends, start saving up today!

Matthew 6:20 (Amplified Bible)

^"But gather and heap up and store for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust nor worm consume and destroy, and where thieves do not break through and steal;"

-BibleGateway.com

PW is just the best lesson to unwind.

"You know in real life if she got cat eat mouse need to pay like a dollar or something?"

"Ariel can you stop PONG-ing? Bloody irritating."

"Should have seen my hand just now! Freaking nice lah, then Pei Wen had to hu."


Anyway, basketball in school till about 7 with Jason and Gran and the interact-basketball team Adeline.
A new day, a new friend.
Somehow reminds me of Krishnan, not just the name.

In any case, felt fruitful.
A lot more to improve if we're ever going to play in nationals.
Like:
















































This much to improve.

Ok rushing PI, I've got a brillant plan for my planned application.

Everyday, i start homework at 10pm.
That is just not going to work.
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

I think i really miss hols.

“Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;”

(Romans 12:12, KJV)

Privacy issues on facebook.
Actually, its more of a social concern.

Just to address it here, please do not add me for a superficial reason.
Look at my status on facebook and you'll understand what i mean.

People, i know you are reading my blog.
Adsense tells me so.
So please tag!

I do check it daily you know!

Team outing was great today, got to know the team people a little better.
And Clark is one heck of a great storyteller.

I feel crushed by an albatross.

"The worst part of going through a trial is not understanding why the trial is occurring, or what the purpose of the trial is. You can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. You don’t even know where you are going. There will always be periods when you feel like you are wandering through life aimlessly. You are unable to grasp any sense of the direction you are heading. In those moments when you can’t fully comprehend everything that is going on in your life, just cling tightly to Jesus." - www.konghee.com

Is Beauty a blessing or a curse?

Within a month, i can have 2 different tags that link to a blogshop.
Does this mean viewership is going up? (^^)

Now i can wash my hair with one press of shampoo.
:/
Oh well, but i still feel i didn't get the honour due.

Luke 6:28
"bless those who curse you, and pray for those who spitefully use you."

Word of the Day

Thought this was pretty interesting and deserved a post:

ken \KEN\, noun:

1. Perception; understanding; knowledge.
2. The range of vision.
3. View; sight.

Star Awards is the acting award ceremony where you can hear gratitude speeches in two or more languages.

Other thoughts include an unhelpful PE HOD who won't let me off on thursday to open a chalet.
I really really really hope it rains on thursday afternoon.

Give honour to whom honour is due.
Sometimes i just...squelch the thought.

'Vengeance is Mine," says the Lord.

"Seek first the kingdom of God, and His rightiousness shall be added to you."

Indie Education

I just have this strong persuasion to drop out of JC and go to a private Uni.
Is it the right choice?

I'm just sick of working so hard for something so worthless.
Another 2 years of academics for a worthless A level certification?
Can't even get you employed.

Just like O's.

Drilling and drilling and drilling.
Studying for something you don't like?

I'm very very jaded.

Methods against passion.
Assessment kills interests.

Why does the alternative seem so lucrative now?

A Different Friday

You know, PE is horrible when you're the only guy in your class doing it.
Especially when all the guys(reminder: 3) in the class are in sports CCA and the other two are excused for competition when ALL sports are having seasons.

OH well.
Training for NAPFA i guess.
And today's 2 rounds around the school made me realise something.
I'd always thought the road home from yck mrt was rather short.
Now i realise that it is rather long and tiring to run that same path.
One road, two perspectives.

Speaking of which, Technologies often get replaced or fade in time but Perspectives will always leave a timeless impression.
I'm not comparing Science classes to Arts classes (:
Ok fine, everyone and anyone can come up with a new perspective(does this satisfy you now science class readers? hahaha).
Probably because we're all so different.
Appreciable diversity.
So please don't be afraid to be different.
Say NO to uniforms! Haha

Ok enough rambling.
If you want to start a GP argument on whatever i've posted, just go somewhere else.

Rumors i don't need.
Well its not going to matter because its not about what people think but what God thinks.

But i ask the question, why?

Its time to get back to the cross.

Free Cone Day!

Free cone day today!
Well its my first.
And i have never had so much ice cream in a single day.
Junk food, must stop.
Especially since i've yet to get my ass to the gym.

Well Bailey's at Udders was awesome.
Like SUPER SPECIAL AWESOME.

And i nearly died(metaphorically) on 5 eclipse mints.
Desperate to stay awake during lectures.
Ariel said it was some laxative.
And i realise only now that he went to the toilet for like 15 mins after econs lecture when we were trying our best to stay awake popping eclipse mints.

Every passing day with more and more homework.
Well today isn't that bad.
And managed to survive several lessons without being called to hand up some overdue assignments.

Studying sessions with Aril, Han Nui and Lev.
Often turns into chatting.
Ok but there is focus.

I need to stop spending. Like seriously.
Still have to pay Mic for the tees.

No new insight today.
Just another recollection.

Song of the Day: The World is Black - Good Charlotte

Instant Gratification

Here's the petition for saving polaroid.

Oh God, PI has never been this interesting until you've showed me.

Life is never what it seems but it just keeps getting better and better.
Man i sound cliche.

With Thanks

Before i post anything else, I'd just like to dedicate this post to friends, families and some random people at xinmin who made the past week ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS!

Day after day, it was like reliving my birthday again and again.
And i ask God, what did i do to deserve this?
It has really been a tremendous blessing to have such people in my life.

Chronologically,

Thanks to the xin min ST people(Lynette,Chelsea,Beverly,Trilene,Samuel,Wen Ying,Wen Qi and some other people i didn't really know), Cheng Hao and Troy last saturday for celebrating my birthday during the xin min carnival!
Thanks for the cake, lunch and the coupons haha!
I had the mee goreng and chicken piece after my service so i didn't have to buy dinner ;D
But it didn't help to know that a few xin min people have a crush on me. @_@

Thanks to the cell!
Celebrated my birthday after service!
Yeah N341, and not forgetting N112 who were there too!
Too many to name but still thanks everyone!
Thanks for the present and the cake and also everything else haha!
But WH, you guys weren't the first! Now you know haha!

Thanks to the choir people!
Germaine, Kenda and Ching En!
For wishing me Happy Birthday over the phone haha!

Thanks to the Usher gang!
Jolin, Esther, Mei Jing, Yun Ru, Harvey, Jacq, Leonard, Lena, Vanessa and Cheryl(I know you didn't manage to make it but still thanks!)
For the treat, the ipod, the food, the time, the fun, the cake(LOL).
Really thanks a lot! Enjoyed the company!

Thanks to my family!
Mom, Dad and Bro.
Ichiban sushi, fantastic food.
New contacts and yeah, the time and effort spent.
And also the cake!

Thanks to 36/09!
For the surprise, i know it wasn't easy to organise haha!
And also for the really creative gifts haha!
I assure you all the gifts are well used!
And i know what the tissue is for, lol.
Just had the bread just now, with ferraro Nutella!
And love the GIGANTIC card haha!

Thanks to the 4A people!
Si Yun, Zhao Ming, Bryan, Michelle, Melissa, Kah Ming, Wei Shian, Chuan En, Ms Loi
Thanks for the cake and the company!
Hahaha reminiscence.
As quoted from Bryan, "WHAT? YOU'RE MEETING YOUR PRIMARY 2 TEACHER?!"

Thanks to Section 5!
Alex, Andy, Lena, Gaius, Joyce, Siew Peng, Jonathan, Clark(Thanks for the sms!), Vanessa, Rita.
For the dinner, the dou hua and of course, the really really fantastic book!
Thanks for always being a support pillar in my growth with Christ!

Thanks to Khee Ern, Yin Zheng, Darryn and Robin for the lunch on Good Friday!
Even though it was a short time, it was still great!
Like the 'diabetes' french toast haha!
Totally sweet.
And the voucher that 'I keep'.
HAHAHA
Eat out again soon!

What can i say?
What a blessing.

Since Monday night, every night has been a belated birthday celebration.
I don't know what to say.

THANKS EVERYONE!

AJC Family Day 09

Today was really enjoyable!
With 36/09!

Early in the morning, i already became a walking advertisement for my stall.
And while the others were busy setting up the stall,
Lev, Kendramon, Ariel, Angeline and I were spraying watermelon seeds and shooting each other while waiting for the our part of the 25km run to start.

Our contingent got cut off halfway!
During the transfer at the bus haha!

And while we were running in, it was like tons of people cheering for us because we were the last to run in.
And like they were popping confetti while we ran in, felt like some olympic/marathon runner finishing a race haha!
While we were catching our breath, i turned to the others and said, "We should do this more often."

Plenty of shooting after that, especially around our stall area.
Pictures already up on facebook.
And i think people thought i was some official photographer cos i was wearing the "iServe" tee haha!

And i was quite surprised that our stall had customers.

"Actually i thought that our would not have such a good business, till i realise that three-quarter of the population in AJ are girls."

Well i'll the rest of the talking to the pictures.

My messaging is on an all time high these past few days.
Thank God my plan finally has free messaging.
Really helpful for Easter^^

Whew, prayer week has been a blast!
Just as what WH said, keep pressing in, keep pressing in, until you've reached a whole new level.
If 1 hour on Earth can make us go so deep into the presence, i cannot imagine how it will be like in heaven.

Xin Min school carnival soon, I've got to do someone's Birthday card so bai people.

Gud Arfthemoon Misther Rong

Hooked on learning korean haha!

Mimicking korean english accents during civics lesson.

And i'm beginning to think PW is one hell of a big mountain.

Keep Your Loose Change

Doing random stuffs today in class.
Mostly with regards to my hair.

And the GP teacher keeps telling me to sit on my chair.
"Chairs were designed for peopel to sit and tables for people to write."
Want to see how a chair is designed to shut people up? ^^
Ok cannot, must give honour just as John Bevere says.

And when Levinia was trying to find my EZ-Link photo, something happened.
She is like the epic fail girl.
My loose(literally) change fell into her porridge.
Karma mama says Yvonne.

Alright time to catch up on work.
Is it me or does it seem like there's hardly any work to do?

Sowing and Reaping

Sometimes we search everywhere for answers and don't realise that they are just right in front of us.

GP lesson last monday was a laughing spree.
A period to train those abs.
And i brought the guitar for nothing!

Angeline said that sowing and reaping was an idealistic sentence.

This is probably why i'll never become a lawyer.


I'd just like to discuss a little about this though.

Is sowing and reaping merely just a optimistic ideal that speakers, motivators, preachers use to perk up the message that they have at hand?
Or is it really a intangible law at work every single day of our lives?


Some people believe that for every seed you sow, it is not guaranteed get back 100% of what you've sown.
They say,"If you're lucky, you'll get back 50%, or more."

Isn't it such a case, especially in the area of education?
Sometimes, we take all that extra effort to prepare for that one test, one exam, one assessment that matters.
And guess what?
Life has to play a mean trick on us.
We don't get the grades we thought we should have deserved.
Is this really true sowing and reaping?
How come the amount that i've put in is not equal to the output i'm getting?

Why don't i get the promotion and yet that slacker does?

Why don't i get the post i've wanted and yet that someone else who's less deserving gets it?

Life is full of ironies isn't it?


And then there are others that believe that for every seed you sow, you'll definitely reap back more than what you've sown.
One seed can produce a multitude of fruits once it grows into a tree, can it not?

Take for example, the seed of an apple.
All you've got in your hands is but a seed.
You plant it, you water it.
And when it finally grows into a tree, how abundant is the harvest that you receive!
Certainly more than ever, your seed has multiplied, ten times, twenty times, thirty times, even a hundred times!


But wait a minute, isn't this also sowing and reaping?


Why is there so much difference in the reaping process?
Was there something that went wrong?
If the reaping process couldn't be changed, was there something that happened in between from the sowing process all the way until the start of the reaping?


When a farmer sows his seeds into the land, does he know exactly which seed will definitely bring back a harvest?

Imagine that he scatters his seeds all over a plot of land, wouldn't it be possible that some would be eaten up by birds, other animals or insects?

And when the plants start growing, are there not the weeds that grow beside it?
Some of these weeds even have the audacity to choke its host plant, effectively reducing the number of crops that can be harvested by one.

Worse of all, there might be a sudden change in weather, the seasons just didn't seem to follow the calenders of yester-years.
The dry season was too long, the wet season was too short, yet again, the farmer has low expectations of the harvest.

So hey, there are so many possibilities that can influence the harvest results and they all range from the moment the seed is sown all the way till before it is ready for harvest.

Which brings us back to the farmer, if he knew all these might happen, why did he still sow in the first place?

The answer is simply because, he sowed in faith.
All he needed to do, was to believe that someway, somehow, he would and could possibly, reap something from sowing seed.

Ok stop, pause and think. You may say that my answer is overly idealistic, but just consider this in a logical manner, is every farmer assured that his every seed will sprout and bring forth fruit?
Every single possibility under the sun to ruin the crops coupled with the unpredictable events that happen from day to day effectively puts every seed at risk.
You may say that technology has improved farming methods, but, crops are still susceptible to a variety of other factors that may cause it to be destroyed.
Technology has merely lessened the risks.

Back to my point, the farmer definitely needed at the very least, an ounce of faith while he was sowing seeds.

And would you agree that by law of relativity, the more seeds he scattered, the higher his chances of reaping would be?

2 Corinthians 9:6 (New King James Version)

But this I say: He who sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and he who sows bountifully will also reap bountifully.

As illustrated in the bible, someone who scatters more seed than another will definitely reap more.

Even if you have had gave your best in preparing in an examination and didn't get the results you desired, you still would have showed an reasonable performance.

Effort shows.

Sometimes in life there are just too many birds that fly past our crop fields;
too many weeds that clutter our land;
too many dry seasons that spoil our harvest,
but if we don't lose hope, and continue to scatter in faith, continue to water it daily, continue to persevere in our efforts, one day, your harvest will not be denied.

Mark 4:20 (New King James Version)

But these are the ones sown on good ground, those who hear the word, accept it, and bear fruit: some thirtyfold, some sixty, and some a hundred.

FOL - Fun, Obvious Learning

Today's singing lesson was interesting!
And Celine's pretty cute.

Crashed at Charlie's lesson during break.
Think people have more respect for dancing now.
And its time to gather the BBOY people so can practice after school haha.
Important training time cos i'm suspending MG for 2 months.

Long post coming up soon, still editing it.

All Over the Place

Why why why?
I think the holidays really have caused to be totally unrestrained.
I need to find that discipline back.

Discipline for work.

Discipline for gym.

Discipline for guitar.

Discipline for dance.

Discipline for gaming.

Discipline for prayer.

Its a tiring moment, and this time i know the cause is me, not events.
Getting back to the narrow way, getting back to the first love.

Organisation.

My mind is in a flurry of different thoughts, I need sleep.

Seeking the kingdom again, putting it in the center.
All that i've learnt, the time for application, is now.

And i ask myself is it another holiday?
Probably not, but it has been a fulfilling 7 days so far.

i m at yur laptop posting on yur blog.



ariel! again. ^_^

What makes you tick?

Evangelism Xplosion was the BOMB!
Like BOOM! EXPLOSION!

Learnt so much, impacted so much.
I almost couldn't believe that i had spent half a day in jurong west building!
Really an anointed place, presence presence presence.
And i got to see the rooftop haha!
My vision for water baptism next year!

Skipping the other churchy details, I've come to note that its been sometime that i've blogged about a noteworthy post.

After how Terence shared about today,
every post we make on our blog can actually have an impact.
I seem to have forgotten that.

All the mediums we have available and yet we don't utilise them.
I think its about time.

Respite

Hols are here!
A time of rest.
But why can i have 3 same events on the same day?
Applicable to Mon(yesterday) and Wed.

Well today was kind of interesting, got the chanceto practice my people photography.(HAHA JACQ)
I'll let facebook do the talking with the pictures.
Rainy weather didn't stop us from having fun, although it did stop us from having most of it.
Mini misadventures but in the end, another enjoyable day.

Great start to the hols!
Won't let homework cramp my style.

Egogogo

If AdSense can track how many people view my blog everyday, i definitely know some people aren't tagging!
Haha 45 page impressions?

Chinese chi chi

CHINESE IS FINALLY DONE WITH HALLELULAH!
And the most unexpected thing was that the teacher thought our essay was quite impressive.
Still got some things to improve, but she said she was satisfied with the standard of both groups.
Well praise God, i didn't really expect her to see it that way.

Councilors today were dodging questions like politicians.
Not very satisfiable answers.
Kiru, Natasha and Kendra were like, "You should have run for council!"

And here comes another time of organising.
Thursday - ECP
What to do, what to do, what to do.

Oh and music marathon what to perform?!
I really want to find a female vocalist for My Happy Ending.

Limits no more

Faith puts no limit on God, and God puts no limit on faith.

Reading pastor's blog on a daily basis does sure help one see more, in a biblical manner.

Well last few days were quite hectic, i often reached home late, around 11 or 12.
And with chinese, sleeping time is pushed to often close to 2am.
Wei Qi says she can see my tiredness already.

Pressing on then!
Only a day more.
The zuo wen is almost complete, with Donald's ending paragraph tomorrow, it'll be done.

Yesterday's breaking was fun.
Today celebrated Jon tan's birthday and also farewell party for Davin.
Both at Marina Square.
And i managed to get a cheap tie for Mr Ong.

Ok very tired, school is in 3 hours.
Bai

argh chinese.

I have a sudden urge to teabag people.

Sundays

So much to do again with so little time.
Are sundays always like that?
Especially since i spent sat resting.
Oh well its sort of like my sabbath anyway.

So leaving sunday the only day to do weekend homework.
Left with 2nd history outline and also maths test studying.

Prioritise, Prioritise.
I think i should throw my DS out the window.

And online spree on threadless with Harv and the rest.
Finally.
Before everything runs out of sizes haha!
www.threadless.com

Alright homework time, i'm digressing again.
Please stop tagging me in random personality pictures.
Its interesting but annoying.

Cocoa Madness

Time to be a people-builder.
Mel. C asking why i'm looking so glum.
Am i?

And yesterday was a mad chocolate sale.
Super cheap stuff!
Like a whole lot of way expensive stuff super cheap.
Rita Sport 3 for $1?
Of course must buy!
Oh and we pooled money to get alcoholic chocolates haha!

Managed to get the banner done yesterday!
It was pretty colourful!
And the stroke for the class insignia haha!

After that was back to CHS talk-cock session with the iMedia peeps.
Alot of stories hahaha.
And MC and YZ snatching over the liquor chocolates i gave them.
$15 for 26. Sweet stuff.

Alright homework time~

Projects

Lots of computer sessions today.
Slack slack slacker.
And THANK GOD my phone was still in 211 when i went back to get it.

Design session after school was quite uh, not very innovative i guess.
But there was mario!

AND YAY MY LAPPIE IS BACK!
THE TECH SAID I FRIED MY MOTHERBOARD LOL.

Song of the day: Run, Don't Walk - Hey Monday

AHHHH screw festival of life.
Why so many people signed up for SINGING WHY WHY WHY
The first time i saw i already knew some i confirm no need go.
But now i have trouble choosing!
Erv ask me go those i learnt before go own them LOLOLOL.

"Ok this is how you do baby freeze."

*Automatically does.*

*Everyone stares.*

"Ok, why did you sign up for this class?"

"I like history."

Arrowed

"What did i miss?" - Ariel
"Some house rep responsibilities, not very important." - Me
"Oh ok, then who's house rep?" - Ariel
"Er, i got arrowed to be." - Me
"What arrow! We are democratic ok, we voted!" - Levinia

If a 20 to 1 vote counts as a democratic decision, i guess i'm wrong about totalitarianism.

Ah but i guess being house rep should be fun haha.
Abit like OGL kind of stuffs.

And we were talking about how marketable Levinia was.
Because she wants to be a product.
Ariel and I are such good salesmen.

And we got lost looking for PW class.
Changing all the time.
Lucky AJ is some small school.

Muscle ache in biceps, triceps, abs and a little in chest.
Shoulders wayyy ache.
Especially after trying to learn shoulder freeze yesterday.
Ok PE even on rainy days can kill.
Actually, i think its more of a combi of gymming on monday plus PE on tues then left me aching.

Ok i cannot remember any other thoughts but at least basketball training was extended slightly today.
Still, ended prematurely 'cos of the light drizzle and the lightning alarm that went off.

Chinese hw and PW.
Double research stuff.
Aiyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Archives

I feel i'm missing something important.
Just a sec ago, reading from my archives, i saw:
"Service was wow as usual..."

And i think to myself,(don't complete with, "what a wonderful world.")
Have i lost something over the last 3 years since i've accepted Christ?
A hunger, a desire, a fire, a flame?

God, its just not the same anymore is it.
Now, sometimes it can seem so tiring to go for service, so troublesome to even walk that distance to the interchange, so irritating just to wait for that 1 hour bus ride.

And now, i'm catching less and less of sermons.
Sitting in service and listening to Pastor preach is indeed a blessing.
Compared to standing up in the tunnels with the chatter on the net buzzing in your ear.

So what is it?
Cell group shift, ministry, passion?
I don't think i've lost the fire.
Perhaps just its materialising in a different way.
It used to be just sheer enthusiasm.
Now perhaps its more than that.

Its action, with wisdom.
Not just words alone.

I've come to realise again, the growth i've been through the last three years.
"Ministry shapes your life," someone used to say.
I couldn't agree more.

Ministry gives you purpose.
But i'm realising, perhaps this is not my ministry.
Well, i guess it's back to square one: prayer.

I'd just wish some things would stay the same.