Putting behind the past and moving on with the present.
Well, that's what i'm going to do.
Especially with Pst Kong's timely bible study.

I think i've missed out on my first love.
And i truly apologize.
I just cried my heart out during worship.
And it felt so good to let go and let God.

Sidenote: Note and previous post on fb is not written in argument form FYI.
Metaphors are my thing, if you haven't noticed already.

In any circumstance,
I'll always be the shumalite and You will be my Solomon.

I still cannot believe what i can come up with in the middle of the night, just from a few conversations over messenger.
God is an awesome God, and the Holy Spirit just as hell creative.

God didn't give everyone everything they wanted so that people could learn to share.

In all Honesty

Preferential learning.
I'd just love to give my life to God first, and then devote the rest to music as a discipline.
But noooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
I can't.
Because studies are OH-SO important.

Ok Singapore, i can see your point why you want everyone to be smart because people are the only resource you have.
And its kind of sad.
Because some of your youths are screaming for change and you turn a deaf ear to them.
Because some of your youths don't want to cooped up in classrooms all day long and want to sing, dance, make music, paint, draw, take pictures, model, design clothes for the rest of their life.
And you know what, we don't even consider it a career.

Its a blessing to be doing what you're called to do.

But i don't blame you little miss of fourty,
because we are a small peesai country.
Always sitting in the sun,
making students and your collared workers run.
Without a choice where no one can complain,
because everyone's mindset has been programmed the same.

Society has degraded education in a necessity.

Have we given up much more for the paper chase than we have had initially thought.

Can we not have a preferential education where everyone learns at their own pace?
A coursework where time is not a factor and the thousand slips of documents are not the determinants of our paychecks?

If the world didn't revolve around money, will degrees be as valued?
An ideal that will never be fulfilled.

The inside lingo had me at 'hello', but we go where the money goes.

This is a cry that is going out to all of you.
If you are evoked, invoked or provoked,
don't be afraid to speak up.

An open channel for banter on the right.
All feedback is well received.

Because words are ammunition you cannot run out of.

'School's Out' NOW PLEASE

It takes a moment to fall in love,
But it takes you years to know what love is.

Its only a day more to the end of school but it feels like forever.

Well today, according to Yvonne(or Germaine i can't remember), i practically attended only 3 lessons for the whole day since i got chased out of hist and econs.

FTW Moment:
Germs: "So now what, we go back in and get killed is it?"
Me: "Yeah, just like halo."

Everyday seems to be a dream i cannot reach, a distance i cannot walk, a fatigue i can't endure, a mountain i cannot move.
A life i shouldn't be living.

Deliverance

Never felt so released in a long long time.
And this time, i want it to stay that way.
Because truly, there is nothing more i want than You.

Your heart has only one place, do you want it filled with the Spirit, or with demons?

revengancex@hotmail.com sent 21/5/2009 8:53 PM:
why you hypocrite and put on facade in aj
revengancex@hotmail.com sent 21/5/2009 8:53 PM:
can you tell me why
Vita la Vitualamen. Alleviation. Mat 6:33 says:
I'll be right back! Leave your msg behind.
- Illonus. | [ river of fire. ] says:
LOL
- Illonus. | [ river of fire. ] says:
YOU DAMN IRRITATING I SWEAR
Vita la Vitualamen. Alleviation. Mat 6:33 says:
I'll be right back! Leave your msg behind.
- Illonus. | [ river of fire. ] says:
AT LEAST YOUR MSN SPIRIT DAMN IRRITATING
Vita la Vitualamen. Alleviation. Mat 6:33 says:
I'll be right back! Leave your msg behind.
- Illonus. | [ river of fire. ] says:
OH FUCK
- Illonus. | [ river of fire. ] says:
I HATE AUTOMESSAGE
Vita la Vitualamen. Alleviation. Mat 6:33 says:
I'll be right back! Leave your msg behind.

Facade

Sometimes i feel i put on a different front in school.

And today's short unexpected debate has put Yvonne, Joy, Ariel and me in the same category.
The category that well, says: JC life pretty much sucks.

Sometimes i need a little bit more faith.
Wavering is not the way to go, its either to walk or to fall.
Astray.
Doubled mindedness is rewarded with instability.
But i get provoked time and again,
is this the path i've chosen myself,
or the one that i've been shown?

Please God, let it be the one that you have shown me, if not, 3 months of education have been very much in vain.

30 seconds (Well actually its 29) to make you want to learn bboy:

Check out the 22 second spin

Well unexpected surprise at home.

I've been wanting to play Halo Wars for ages.

"When you buy one?"

"That time march holidays go Sim Lim Square buy Ham's laptop thing then he saw the game then say what special pack limited edition then buy lor."

To think i had it in my home all along.

Awesome so far but pretty intense.
Even the normal difficulty campaign has me running everywhere to complete mission objectives.

Ok back to JC life.
Which is getting really bothersome.

A New Level

Thank God!

For 2 things:

1) New sennheiser headphones!
Finally collected this baby after purchasing at the IT fair 2 MONTHS AGO.
And it came with a free pair of headphones 0.0

2)2.4km run new timing!
Its like a major breakthrough from my previous timing, which was like 13--something.
13-something was a D or an E.
Today, i got a B!
11:05!
Came in 4th overall which was well, unexpected.

All the more to Praise God!

Awesome cover by Boyce Avenue, my new love.
Credits to Mell of course, who reads my blog from work haha!

Bleeding Love (Leona Lewis Cover) - Boyce Avenue

A mountain of homework.

And so much stuff to settle.

Ahhh lit lit lit lit lit lit.

School was abnormally but gladly short today, except for the lit lesson which sort of ruined the entire off-day feeling.

Got my threadless tees!
And Mic was super shocked to have gotten the tee haha!
Belated Birthday Gift!

AND I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT MAPLE SENT ME A WELCOME BACK PACKAGE TO GET ME PLAYING MAPLE AGAIN HAHAHAHA!
ISABELLA IF YOU'RE READING THIS: I HAVE GOT NEWS FOR YOU HAHAHA!
Pretty unbelievable, recession must have hit maple real hard too.

And my previous post is up on fb too, feel free to comment/like it, appreciate feedback, thanks!

Treasures

"First of all, Solomon’s temple speaks of purity. The whole building was characterized by its great length.....
Maybe as you read this devotion today, you are going through some challenging situations in your life. Be encouraged to know that the fiery trials are sent your way to purge and equip you so that you will be able to enter into your “new building” with God’s blessing.....
Finally, Solomon’s temple was made of pure gold. It cost billions of dollars to build because it was covered within and without with pure gold. God wants your inner life and outward ministry to be gloriously full of His presence and power." - KongHee.com, Daily Devotions

As i was reading this part of the devotion, i was just reminded of the desert song.
Indeed only the purest gold can withstand the fierest flames.
But you can't simply pick up a gold piece just on the street can you?
Which leads to me thinking, how are going to be that gold?

I would like to think it in the context of today's society.
Gold vs Dollars(Paper Money)
Which is a more stable indicator of financial abundance? (Let's not take diamond into context.)
The answer is obviously gold right, since it is used in determining currency strength and values.

And there is your answer.
If gold determines currency strength and value, Character determines our strength and values.
Our gold is our character.
When we have built up a large amount of gold in our banks, we are not afraid of going through even the deepest of recessions because we can be assured that our gold will be more than enough to last us throughout the recession.
When we have built up our character, we are not afraid of going through the most arduous of tasks because we know that we can withstand any challenges that may come our way.

And most importantly, an accumulation of wealth, or gold for the matter is not something that can be done overnight.
Similarly, a building up of character is not achieved overnight.


So my friends, start saving up today!

Matthew 6:20 (Amplified Bible)

^"But gather and heap up and store for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust nor worm consume and destroy, and where thieves do not break through and steal;"

-BibleGateway.com

PW is just the best lesson to unwind.

"You know in real life if she got cat eat mouse need to pay like a dollar or something?"

"Ariel can you stop PONG-ing? Bloody irritating."

"Should have seen my hand just now! Freaking nice lah, then Pei Wen had to hu."


Anyway, basketball in school till about 7 with Jason and Gran and the interact-basketball team Adeline.
A new day, a new friend.
Somehow reminds me of Krishnan, not just the name.

In any case, felt fruitful.
A lot more to improve if we're ever going to play in nationals.
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This much to improve.

Ok rushing PI, I've got a brillant plan for my planned application.

Everyday, i start homework at 10pm.
That is just not going to work.
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

I think i really miss hols.

“Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;”

(Romans 12:12, KJV)

Privacy issues on facebook.
Actually, its more of a social concern.

Just to address it here, please do not add me for a superficial reason.
Look at my status on facebook and you'll understand what i mean.

People, i know you are reading my blog.
Adsense tells me so.
So please tag!

I do check it daily you know!

Team outing was great today, got to know the team people a little better.
And Clark is one heck of a great storyteller.

I feel crushed by an albatross.

"The worst part of going through a trial is not understanding why the trial is occurring, or what the purpose of the trial is. You can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. You don’t even know where you are going. There will always be periods when you feel like you are wandering through life aimlessly. You are unable to grasp any sense of the direction you are heading. In those moments when you can’t fully comprehend everything that is going on in your life, just cling tightly to Jesus." - www.konghee.com

Is Beauty a blessing or a curse?